Do I look like I care what any of you so called followers think?
I have my life or what’s left of it to live, and not you or angone else is getting another minute of my time that doesn’t deserve it.
So there’s the door, be careful as it slams behind you.
I’ve often thought and wondered when I saw people obviously in love why they sometimes couldn’t stand to be in the same room.
I’ve come to the conclusion that sometimes everyone just needs their own space.
We are individuals, but when you’re in a relationship you become a pack animal. Being in such a confined space it’s easy for small niggly behaviour to escelate and become more than a nuisance.
Does that mean the relationship is flawed or there is a problem? No of course it doesn’t.
It’s increasingly important to have outlets, emotional and physical alone time. We live fast paced and hectic lives, people are always coming and going.
So when you feel your head begining to pound, or you feel like snapping at someone you care about. Take a time out.
All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.
Tolkien, Lord of The Rings
To get from A to Me, in 6 simple steps it is first important to understand the Me.
My soul was so young then (2007).
There was a natural mischief, love of the world and awe at everything the world had to offer.
Just look into his eyes and tell me you see any demons or devils lurking in the shadows?
How then that in the short 6 years that follows that photo the eyes have taken on so much hurt, pain and sadness?
That is the immortal question isn’t it?
Worn out soul me (2013)
So, how do you get from A to Me in 6 steps?
- lie to me
- conspire against me
- implicate me
- steal from me
- threaten me
- attack me
That’s all it takes to get to me in a bad way. But how to get to the inner me?
- buy me flowers
- kiss my cheek
- tell me I’m loved
- listen to my jokes
- laugh at my jokes
- hold me as I sleep
So simple, yet so effective!
Have a good Monday. Those at work, remember the working day will end eventually. Those at home, remember it could be worse. LOLz
As Christmas draws closer it got me thinking about people who have come into my life and those who got left behind or left.
I thank everyone who is and has been in my life, both physically and online for their support and encouragement.
I haven’t always been what you would call religious or spiritual. I used to be a little S.O.B. Lolz.
But I titled this Presents because the best gifts are the people in your life. And at this time of year you get to spend days with them. Without all the baggage you carry every other day of the year.
Blessings to everyone.
As I write this it’s 12:52 at night and for another night I’m having trouble getting to sleep.
I’m stressed and worried, maybe even depressed. I haven’t bought any Christmas presents, I’m barely keeping afloat with bills, jobs are nowhere in sight and I’m unwell.
All I want to do is crawl up and go to sleep but have so much on my mind. I used to turn to my novels but even writing them is turning sour. I look at the PC screen and want to just delete everything I’ve already written.
I don’t want to turn to medication to help me sleep but I eventually might have to see the doctor and explain.
I don’t even know why I’m baring my soul to this blog. Maybe for support or a cry for help. Who fucking knows why I do the things I do.
Did you know it was my birthday on the 3rd of November and I didn’t get one stinking card from my family? Yet they are in my dreams nearly every night.
I feel like crying or slicing my wrists at the moment, but I’m too much of a coward because it will hurt.
I have someone who depends on me and I need to make sure they are safe and taken care of first. At times I resent her for being here, but I think if she wasn’t neither would I be.
So yes, today is a down day.